Positive feedback?

Now I'm a little confused about my hairstyle -_-

today suddenly out of the blue my uncle came up to me and said " Nicole, you're so pretty"

I was shocked and replied " why suddenly?"

He commented nicely on my new haircut, i must really take a picture tomorrow when I go out with Chui and Rose at Sunway to show all of you. and you guys can be the judges.

Well anyways, like i said im trying something new, if it doesn't work out , it can grow back longer again =) no worries.

New hair, negative feedback

I went to cut my hair today at Antico to try out Jack, lishen's stylist and now my fringe covers more of my forehead and it's on the right side now.

Initially i liked it, but later on my parents said it isn't practical and questioned me why am I hiding my pretty forehead because they said I have nice features which made perfect sense (I'm not boasting).

But i wanted to try something new, and I thought it wasn't bad but i guess I'm more convinced now that I look better without a fringe and it's frustrating because I already got the haircut and my parents doesn't like them.

Its even more frustrating when what you think is nice is thought otherwise by other people . sigh.

I WILL post up pictures tomorrow hopefully, and ya'll can be the judge =/

Ewww.

Yes ewww, ewww at me

because I have that temptation which I cannot fight against now at this hour!

Must persevere, before the penultimate peril, literally chaos 0_0

-get yourself together girl

Everyone has their own fight

Every Has Their Own Fight
No matter how big or small it is
whatever bothers our minds is a fight
A fight where victory or defeat is besides the point
Ultimately, it is our responsibility to control the outcome, win or lose.

Results

I got my results this morning and believe me it was not a very pleasant experience breaking down the news for my parents.

The first thing they noticed was not the H1 i got for Biology & Chinese or H2B I got for Chemistry ( 1 mark away from H2A) but the mere P i scored for my Calculus 1 exam. I wouldn't blame them of course, since I'm aspiring to get into medicine, I should be performing at my best and scoring H1 for all my core subjects the least.

Honestly, I'm relieved for passing calculus simply based on the amount of effort I put in which was not much at all! So yeah, thats the grade I deserve.

And I've really gotta stop making up excuses for stufff and just admit that I'm wrong and I will learn from my mistake. This is a good wake up call and yes it's good motivation in the near future for future exams which seems like they're already looming threatheningly around the corner... *sighs*.

I really don;t want to disappoint my parents & most of all I don't want to take advantage of how much faith they have in me to achieve my dreams which I'm very apprehensive about..

yes so, semester 2 resolutions are

Nerd regularly in the library with my nerd buddies.

Time manage efficiently so that I won't chiong too much before the exams and then fall sick.

Keep in touch with all my friends no matter where they are.

P.S I know some people are looking forward to my housewarming 'party' but following the recent 'events' I don't think I'll be hosting one this year. Besides, there's no television yet and it takes longer than you'd expect to settle down properly. So yea housewarming has been postponed indefinitely.

Drug Overload

Today is the first time I step out of the house....

with a mask...

but to the doctor.

-_- I know so potong stim but oh well better than NOTHING.

My salivary gland has been swollen for three weeks and that's clearly not a good sign. Evidently that's one nasty bastard of a stone which refuses to come out!

Right, I love our family doctor who's truly a magnificent doctor who advised me to try and eat asam everyday and massage the swollen area to help dislodge the stone so as to avoid surgery which could probably give me more complications.

Yes I am on a drug overload because I'm on fever med, paracetamol, antibiotics and mor antibiotics 0_0 hence, I'm drowsy most of the time and thus always sleeping. Well at least that helps me pass my quarantine time faster.

I watched Blood and Chocolate today. It's fantastic! And I'm going to watch Nanny Diares now!

Is finally not feeling anything

Hmmm I used to be so sensitive about everything, haha, its ridiculous, but then again I forgive myself telling myself well, sometimes a person just have to be messed up in life in order to step up later on.

I went through the pictures in the blog again and woah I felt nothing when previously all i worked for was to impress and to make myself known and simply just to be a significant driving force in that person's life. Why do I have to work so hard for such a thing when I should be working hard on getting into MEDICINE!

Sometimes I think I don't have an identity as in some funny punch line everyone can rmember me by, but im greatful everyone knows the NICOLE FACE =0. heehee. That's good enough for me, cos You can't always get what you want, just live life the way it is, and just make it better for yourself, it's all in the mind.

Breaking The Hiatus

To break the hiatus, i thought i'd put up a picture I took from Mebourne Aquarium I took last week when I went with Ivan and his younger brother =) turned out really good =)

It's been too long since I blogged.

So, just the gist of what happened -

-I moved into my apartment on Flinders Street.

-Clearly, I finishes exams already on the 24th, ending it with Chinese Listening Exam.

-And the activities of post exam period was equally busy with regular travelling to Ikea and assembling furnitures as well as brainstorming how to decorate my new crib.

-on the contrary Exam period was just as stressful as ever and come to think of it, it was just Semester Over exams and I was already struggling.

-I joined Plurk, and I love the emoticons!

-My salivary gland has been swollen for 3 weeks, went for an ultrasound scan and there's a 7mm calculi in my duct, so when my fever settles I'm going to se the doctor

-A relationship ended and an old one strenghtened, so all is good.

-Today is the 5th of July and I'm in Malaysia being SELF QUARANTINED because I go caught at KLIA with a temperature of 38 degrees, and I'm still wating for results, simultaneously praying that It's not Swine Flu, but then again I shall Expect the Unexpected. =)

- I would like to add a little ranting here, there were over 10 nurses roamin about at the airport assisting ONE doctor and they were still not as efficient, they were clueless and confused, hence, had to wait 2 hours just to get my temperature checked, get a throat swab and collect my medicine -_-.

SO what have I been up to during my righteous quarantin hours?

I've been managing my FLickr account and watching movies online, it's really not that bad, check it out =) Here's the link..

www.legalmovies.tv/list

I hope my fever continues to drop, for now it's 37.5 and I'm feeling so much better now =)